It still seems very distant, removed, unreal.
My work season here in the Colorado Rockies just ended, and I am still living in my dorm room, not yet even entirely packed to return to Florida for the short rest in between adventures.
I am drained, emotionally and physically.
It has not quite sunk in yet (at least not completely) that I have survived yet another astonishingly difficult period of my life.
I have vowed NEVER to take on seasonal work in the park concessions system again.
I cannot pack for India until I get back and unpack in Florida...which is five and a half days from today.
So again, the theme is "limbo". I am stuck in some kind of middle ground.
Plans have been changed due to panic attack/mini-crisis, then changed back again. I now have all my inter-India rail tickets up until 31 December 2009...
I'll be ringing in the New Year on an overnight train between Delhi and Varanasi, and will start 2010 in one of the world's holiest cities.
It still does not seem real.